fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!

Let's just say I have had a really bad week, beginning with Monday, where I heard my boss talking about me "behind my back" even though she put the hurdles for me to jump over in the first place, and when I was ready to "jump", she raised them higher so I would fail miserably, only to laugh at me and talk to the other "nazi" about me and my failure. They also instituted mandatory overtime which really sucks. Luckily, I made it out on time to have a nice evening with Chas at The Enzian for a party. Tuesday, I had a sinus headache and then was nauseated for several hours, though I did eventually begin to feel better, and I felt well enough for a quick visit to Borders with glittergrrl69. The last 3 days at work have been crap. Utter crap, I tell you. Yesterday has to rank as one of the worst days ever. The calls were just unbelievable. And of course having head and stomach aches, and being overly fatigued and stressed has left me feeling rather bitchy and somewhat alienating. I keep wondering if any of this has to do with the new medicine I am on, but I can't imagine such a small dose would have such a strong effect on me so soon. I don't know. And to make things worse, they have blocked lj at work again, as of today, and they have denied my request for time off to go to a doctor visit for my ears to be looked at. And when I am consistently having pain, or my hearing fades out in one ear, or gets a static-like sound/noise in them, I get worried so I want a specialist to look at them. They're my fucking ears...the things I use to HEAR people with! The things that I NEED to make sure are ok because my job DEPENDS on my ability to hear the calls. I got the appointment for 2 weeks at least notice, and it still wasn't good enough for them. I don't get understand.

I just haven't really felt up to doing anything much the last few days. I'm sorry to anyone I have pissed off this week. I know it has probably been a few.