Some of my recent thoughts.

Most of the time, I am not really a talker, and may make some of my friends feel like I am cold or distancing myself, but I am not. Or at least, that is not my intention, and I feel bad about it. Socially, I have always been awkward. My mom used to force me to go out and play with my brothers and the other neighborhood kids, instead of reading or writing all day inside the house. Even when I went outside, there were still many times that I felt like an outsider, watching everyone. For those of you that are my friends, please know that I enjoy being around you guys, even if I am not very talkative. There's a reason we are friends. I know I can be talkative on occasion (I think that is a positive progression from my childhood), and I suppose that is one reason that you are my friends...that I can open up more to you than others, feel less awkward or outsider-ish.Truth be told though, I as I have progressed from my childhood awkward days, I still linger there from time to time. I still feel awkward in many social situations, and can sometimes still feel like an outsider. But I cherish my friends who are there for me when I need them, and whom I can be there for when they need me.