So, my nerves are a little frazzled, but accomplishments made.

Today was the first day I drove to and from work. Monday, I had phishtails drive with me, and then take the car home. Yesterday I drove to work, and had dorkbot drive home with me. Granted, the way to work is a back road and does not have very much traffic, and the way back, a slightly different route, is not too busy at night when I am off. It still sorta scares me, and I have not driven much else so far. And that's ok. It is still somewhat of a jerky ride, or at least was tonight. I almost think it is jerkier than before...maybe my nerves are acting up. Practice will probably help, but if I don't know what I am doing wrong, I am not sure how it will. Only time will tell, I guess, but dorkbot was added to the insurance today, so I am not sure when I will pass the car on to him or how much more time I will have for a while, until I pay him back for his portion.

I am having some body issues, that are probably just age things, but the thought of some of my family's genetic make up scares me into wondering if I am turning into them, now that I am progressing in the over 30 lane. It is hard to accept my current weight, since it is the most I have EVER weighed, even if I am still small and petite. I feel like I am getting pudgy in places I wasn't pudgy before. The main thing bothering me now is my chin, and the skin under it heading toward my neck. My jawline is different and I am not sure if that is a little pudge due to aging, genetics, or maybe something else, because if kinda hurts there, like a muscular strain, right there by my chin, neck, and throat. My back also seems pudgier. I have always had my own issues with my thighs and belly, and still do, but the chin and back are new things, and I don't know if there is anything I can do about them. The back I can excerise, but my chin? And that is a very visible non-hideable area, considering how small the rest of my face it. There is part of me wondering if it *is* some kind of muscle strain and that area is just swollen or something. Eh, I hate feeling like this. I hate feeling society telling me I need to be small and petite, always and forever.

Oh, and if I did not already have enough going on in my mind, I have to take my NCTI Final next Friday, and I am nervous about that. I have all the answers from the individual lessons, and I know the final draws from them, but I am not sure how much I learned and how much was short term memory for the tests. My guess is the latter. So I just need to review and try to memorize the answers as best as possible. I own the book, so I can always study and learn more when I am not in a timed study and learn on your own period. But it will be good to get it over with, and have the payroll deductions stop, and get the $250 back I put into the class.

There are more things on my mind, things that I have been putting a lot of thought into. I guess I just need to chill and relax and hope everything all works out in the best way possible and be happy with it all. And I need to stop thinking so much.