I think I need fun pills.

[plunkybug]

Why do I feel so distant and socially awkward so much of the time? Even among friends, whom I love dearly, I can feel this awkardness. I feel like I don't know what to say so I am usually quiet, or how to act, or whatever. Being "myself" can mean being boring, and while that is a very fine song by the Pet Shop Boys, I feel like I am letting my friends down which makes me feel very self conscious. Very self conscious.

Comments

[greencow.livejournal.com]

sometimes i feel the same way. in fact, i find most days i'd rather be home alone with the company of my two boys...they seem to be the only ones who understand me...

if your friends are truly your friends, they won't ever think you are boring or dull or that you are letting them down. ...

[plunkybug.livejournal.com]

Yeah, maybe I am just used to being by myself, and talking to total strangers for my job, that I am not in the mood to be talkative. Though it isn't just talking, because sometimes I am obsessive on certain things, and can talk about that suject until the cows come home. But it is other things, like dancing...I don't dance, I don't feel the need to drink to do something I should be happy to do sober, and I don't find dancing all that fun. I know I am in the minority there...few people can understand how I feel about that.

[greencow.livejournal.com]

that doesn't make you boring. not everyone likes to drink and not everyone likes to dance. i guess i am one of those people who accepts everyone for who they are....and i certainly don't find variety boring. in fact. it's just the opposite.

[plunkybug.livejournal.com]

I sometimes think I am a better talker on IM than in real life, and over the phone too (except for my job, but that's mostly a lot of regurgitation). My friends accept me for who I am, but it doesn't mean that I don't feel a bit self conscious about these sorts of things.

[aliciasdreams.livejournal.com]

I know this is a cliche but you are okay just the way you are. :) Feelings aren't facts, they are just feelings. Eventually, feelings change into something else. Hang in there.

[plunkybug.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I do tend to be very feelings driven.

[asinglemetaphor.livejournal.com]

You friends wouldn't be your friends if they were let down every time you were boring or lame or difficult in some way. Everyone has times like that, and everyone has days where they are not high energy. You are not expected to constantly entertain the people who love you.

So just relax. =) Your friends are your friends because they ALREADY like you, you don't have anything to prove.

[plunkybug.livejournal.com]

Very well put. Thanks pumpkin. :)