I think I need fun pills.

[plunkybug]

Why do I feel so distant and socially awkward so much of the time? Even among friends, whom I love dearly, I can feel this awkardness. I feel like I don't know what to say so I am usually quiet, or how to act, or whatever. Being "myself" can mean being boring, and while that is a very fine song by the Pet Shop Boys, I feel like I am letting my friends down which makes me feel very self conscious. Very self conscious.

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[plunkybug.livejournal.com]

Yeah, maybe I am just used to being by myself, and talking to total strangers for my job, that I am not in the mood to be talkative. Though it isn't just talking, because sometimes I am obsessive on certain things, and can talk about that suject until the cows come home. But it is other things, like dancing...I don't dance, I don't feel the need to drink to do something I should be happy to do sober, and I don't find dancing all that fun. I know I am in the minority there...few people can understand how I feel about that.

[greencow.livejournal.com]

that doesn't make you boring. not everyone likes to drink and not everyone likes to dance. i guess i am one of those people who accepts everyone for who they are....and i certainly don't find variety boring. in fact. it's just the opposite.

[plunkybug.livejournal.com]

I sometimes think I am a better talker on IM than in real life, and over the phone too (except for my job, but that's mostly a lot of regurgitation). My friends accept me for who I am, but it doesn't mean that I don't feel a bit self conscious about these sorts of things.