I think I need fun pills.

[plunkybug]

Why do I feel so distant and socially awkward so much of the time? Even among friends, whom I love dearly, I can feel this awkardness. I feel like I don't know what to say so I am usually quiet, or how to act, or whatever. Being "myself" can mean being boring, and while that is a very fine song by the Pet Shop Boys, I feel like I am letting my friends down which makes me feel very self conscious. Very self conscious.

Comments

[greencow.livejournal.com]

sometimes i feel the same way. in fact, i find most days i'd rather be home alone with the company of my two boys...they seem to be the only ones who understand me...

if your friends are truly your friends, they won't ever think you are boring or dull or that you are letting them down. ...

[aliciasdreams.livejournal.com]

I know this is a cliche but you are okay just the way you are. :) Feelings aren't facts, they are just feelings. Eventually, feelings change into something else. Hang in there.

[asinglemetaphor.livejournal.com]

You friends wouldn't be your friends if they were let down every time you were boring or lame or difficult in some way. Everyone has times like that, and everyone has days where they are not high energy. You are not expected to constantly entertain the people who love you.

So just relax. =) Your friends are your friends because they ALREADY like you, you don't have anything to prove.