Nothing accomplished this weekend...

[plunkybug]

Well, I can't say NOTHING in the bold word sense, but I was fairly lazy and did not do much. I wanted to do some things (even some responsble things like cleaning and such), but I never got around to doing them. I think part of it was that I have been so tired lately, that I sept in til nearly 2pm both days. It may also have something to do with my mental state...I have admittedly been more depressed than usual. I should dig out the 5-HTP again. Last week, on the 28th, it would have been my parent's anniversary. As of next Saturday, it will be 5 months since he died. I spent a fair amount of the last few days crying a lot. But I did want to get out. Saturday, it was raining, and I was not sure how long Chas would be at this computer expo thingy in Kissimmee, and whether we were getting with friends in the evening or not. We ended up not. Was going to try to do something today while Chas was at computer expo thingy, but ended up staying inside, mostly in the dark, much like yesterday. Although I can say for yesterday, I did have a lovely conversation with my brother, and a nice long one with realitystylist over Yahoo Messenger....well, Adium for me, since it does all the major IM clients. So that WAS nice. Oh, and I got the rent check up to the office...which is how I learned it was raining. Despite having had a vacation recently, I think a nice girls weekend or adventure is in demand for me now. I want to go out and have fun with my female friends, and not have to worry about anything. Hugs are welcome too, of course. I am a hug whore. :)

I need to find a good groove and get back into it...I think I was doing a little better for a while, but...I slipped for a whilie...at least I need to get back to where I was and keep moving up and onward. I need to get more order and discipline in my life. I know it is a hard path, and habits and routines are so hard to break, but at least I recognize that I can do better, I can be better, and that would make me happier.

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[plunkybug.livejournal.com]

You never cease to amaze me with your words. I can only imagine where your journey started, and what you have seen and experienced on your path. All I can say is that I am so glad your path crossed mine. I can definitely agree that I need more balance, that parts of me are fighting, and one is winning over, rather than working together in harmony. Like what realitystylist saying with my Leo/Virgo cusp. Kinda odd when you remember that I just picked up that Tai Chi book, huh?

[teajade.livejournal.com]

Not IF, but WHEN we do get together, and do our BIIIG long weekend/short week GIRL TIME, we'll talk more, and we might learn more about our various journeys...

You know I feel the same about our paths crossing!

I'm a cusp baby, too. Libra/Scorpio. Heh.

;-)

Cuspers are a little odder than the rest of folk, at least I've always though. ;-)

Oh, speaking of Astrology... have you ever had your
WHOLE Natal Chart done? I mean even if you done totally buy into that, even just for fun, or for some extent of food for thought?

If not, it really is at least rather interesting.

I'd be quite curious to know if not, and if so, what you could tell me about it.

HUGZ

[plunkybug.livejournal.com]

Oooh, you're a cusper too? Wow, so maybe there is something odd with us cuspers. :)

I did have a full chart done once, at least I think it was a full natal chart, but I was unable to really gather the info in any immediately UNDERSTANDABLE format. It was a bunch of printed pages with results that I had no way of really interpretting. So I have it somewhere (maybe not anymore though) but it means nothing to me. Which really is no better than saying I don't have it. :P

With astrology, I tend to take it, like many things, with a grain of salt...but a lil shugah never hurts either. ;)

WEEKEND!!! We so need to get planning this! :)

[teajade.livejournal.com]

Dearie, you need a written full natal chart. One that writes out the meanings for each section. They are super duper fun, actually, with such.

a lil bit of shugah never DOES hurt.

LOVE YA.

yes, yes. on the planning.

need to tell you soon, why i'm starting to drag ass, on planning anything. but as soon as that WHY would be taken care of, i'm planning everything soon as possible! [hurry, hurry, hurry, dammit.]

[plunkybug.livejournal.com]

That's fine. I know it is important to you (as me) so any delays in planning are not your choosing. Let me know when you are ready though, because I have done some thinking on the matter a bit.